everyday i walk past gujarat university's battered mathematics department thinking someday somewhere i shall be doing much better, what the people inside that building are trying to accomplish. Math over matter. have always wanted to study number theory and graph theory.
Academia can get unnerving because it has the nerve to hoot and jibe what little you feel you have accomplished with your life.
so to keep smiles and sensibilities intact, in the absence of math, i resorted to reading out of mu teeth. But alas reading alone does not suffice. So fluidly, it leads you on to writing- even if unskilled. I dont think toiling for a job will ever bring the loose ends of my wiring together. So for the sake of insanity, for the lust of reading, for the gut of writing and for the love of math, i believe i MUST show insincerity everywhere else.
Only in this state of extreme dereliction and gigantic awareness will i be able to emphasize the need for voids and the desire to pursue endlessly- their fulfillment.
Academia can get unnerving because it has the nerve to hoot and jibe what little you feel you have accomplished with your life.
so to keep smiles and sensibilities intact, in the absence of math, i resorted to reading out of mu teeth. But alas reading alone does not suffice. So fluidly, it leads you on to writing- even if unskilled. I dont think toiling for a job will ever bring the loose ends of my wiring together. So for the sake of insanity, for the lust of reading, for the gut of writing and for the love of math, i believe i MUST show insincerity everywhere else.
Only in this state of extreme dereliction and gigantic awareness will i be able to emphasize the need for voids and the desire to pursue endlessly- their fulfillment.
u go girl! I say, u quit everything else and very religiously work towards accomplishing ur dream, for the love of math.
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